On the anniversary of being forced out, Jim Tressel said he carries no scars and hopes one day to reconnect with the Buckeyes.
COLUMBUS, Ohio -- On Memorial Day this year, Jim Tressel's plan was golf -- on the links for the first time in 2012, playing nine holes with his wife, Ellen.
"I'll probably shoot 120," Tressel said Monday morning.
He could take to the course with his golf bag, but, as he explained during an interview with The Plain Dealer, no baggage.
Today is the one-year anniversary of Tressel's forced resignation from Ohio State. On May 30, 2011, the football coach's 10-year run with the Buckeyes ended over his major NCAA violations and the public criticism they created.
Tressel lost his job last Memorial Day. In February, he was hired by the University of Akron as its Vice President of Strategic Engagement, and he says he didn't lose his joy for what he does now, or what he did for 25 years as the head football coach at Youngstown State and Ohio State.
"It was going to end one day, in one way or another, and that wasn't the way we wanted to end it," Tressel said.
"Wow, a lot happens in a year, a lot that you don't know is going to happen. But I don't feel scarred or disappointed or mad. I just don't feel that way. The people at Ohio State have always been great to me, and things end up the way they do, and you go on to the next play or the next day, and that's always been the way I look at things."
After six Big Ten titles (and another wiped out by NCAA violations) and the 2002 national title, Tressel's departure was announced a year ago by a video message released by OSU athletic director Gene Smith.
Tressel has granted numerous interviews since then, particularly since February, but nothing that qualified as a farewell to Ohio State -- in part because he did not want to say farewell.
"I wouldn't call it a goodbye," Tressel said. "I would say, 'Hey, we'll see you soon.' Whenever it is, who knows?
"But keep cheering for those Buckeyes. I'm sure we'll have time when we have the chance to reconnect in some form. In the meantime, you've got to make sure the Buckeyes are ready. Who knows what the next 10 or 15 years of college football is going to be like? So keep loving them and keep flying that flag, and we hope one day that we get a chance to reconnect, and in the meantime we know we're still busy and we've got one another to root for."
During his tenure, Tressel provided an office in Ohio State's football building to be shared by former head coaches Earle Bruce and John Cooper. Tressel explained it took many years for those coaches to return, and he laughed when asked about someday dotting the i with the OSU band.
"Time has to take care of some things," Tressel, 59, said, "but I hope to live long enough to have a great career at the University of Akron and then enjoy that recognition of every place I've been."
Tressel still keeps in touch with many former and current Buckeyes, jumping out of a small meeting last week to take a call from former running back Maurice Clarett.
But at Ohio State, time moved quickly. After a 6-7 season under former Tressel assistant Luke Fickell, the Buckeyes hired two-time national championship coach Urban Meyer, who has re-invigorated the fan base, with Tressel now most often mentioned as a contrast to Meyer's intense coaching style. A tumultuous year filled with suspensions, a losing record and a bowl ban for 2012 has yielded to the calm waters of expectation.
"It's pretty crazy. It's almost like it didn't happen," senior tight end Jake Stoneburner said. "For losing one of the greatest coaches at Ohio State ever just a year ago, to be where we're at now, we're pretty fortunate.
"Coach Tress was a great guy, everyone loved him, so to see him get fired or resign, it was tough. It's kind of crazy how it came around to everything working out. I didn't expect it to be like this, but I'm definitely happy about it."
The Buckeyes suffered for a year to reach this point, and will feel the pain again come bowl season. Tressel suffered as well, losing his dream job and, to many, his reputation. His actions brought serious penalties from the NCAA that included a five-year "show-cause penalty" that basically prevents him from coaching on the college level until December 2016.
Tressel's punishment was levied because he became aware of potential NCAA violations committed by several of his players and didn't tell his bosses, as he was required to do by his contract and NCAA rules. He has said previously that he made a mistake.
But the last year in college sports also brought some context, as many schools -- from Penn State to Miami to Arkansas -- dealt with serious problems that didn't change the wrongs at Ohio State, but have changed, to some, how they should be viewed.
Asked if there was anything more he'd like people to know about the Ohio State situation, Tressel said:
"I think everyone has their own perception. ... I don't really have anything I would want anyone to know other than for the 101/2 years I was there, I worked as hard as I could and did as well as I could for Ohio State."
As for what he was thinking a year ago on this day, Tressel said, "What I realized is I was disappointed because it meant I had to leave some folks I loved. But I also knew I had to make decisions in my life that weren't perfect for everyone, and people have to make decisions. So what I needed to do, like one of our guys who gets knocked down, was get up off the turf."
So the team and its former leader believe they have. Ohio State's players said they knew the program, in the end, would be fine.
"I think it's in the best spot it could be," junior safety C.J. Barnett said. "I know we lost a great coach, but we picked up another great coach. We got lucky."
Tressel, who spent last season as a consultant with the NFL's Indianapolis Colts, said he felt the same about himself.
"I had a lot of confidence that we were moving forward and things would be fine," Tressel said. "We talked a million times to our young people about the fact that Ohio State is bigger than you, or Youngstown State is bigger than you, and it's going to move forward. So do the best you can while you're there and know that it's a part of your life forever, but that there's a moment when it's not the every day part of your life.
"The people I run into want to talk about the fond memories, and I'm sure that's not unlike when you lose a loved one and you think back on all those wonderful times, and that's absolutely the way I feel.
"I suppose it was disappointing to some. They thought we would do that forever, but it took a strange turn. But I think when you step back, at least I do, I think of all the good times and the excellent I people I worked with and got to meet."